dont read this

hmm as the semester goes by , my progress seems to be so low down to earth
those tests that i took was hell
and the marks were just like the same.HELL.
and for how many time in my life, sighing is the frequent thing happened.
and the thoughts came in

okay first i never made it throughout this course
NEVER.
especially when it comes to engineering core subj
its a hard times to engulf and swallow all the things that had been thaught
ohh man. everytime i were in these classes,
the only thing that came into my mind was
"when the class will stop?"
i wish the time runs faster.
seriously i felt ashamed when my other friends
got  a high marks in class for each subject and i dont
and when they asked me for my marks,
all i have to do just said "sikit je.tak lah byk sgt.teruklah", and all.
SHAME

i kept thinking for last couple of days that i am doing for the things that i hate
which is involving calculating and engineering stuff and all.
its suffocates me when i sit there and answered my tests with cartoons and all sorts of wordings just because of dont know how to solve that particular questions
i just seems to froze there, sitting on my chair and stare at the people next to my left and right and keep static, waiting for the time to end up just like that with me doing nothing with my questions.

hmm i suddenly thinking of my best buddy when i was in mrsm
he was the one who got many A's in SPM. then he transfered to UM
and unfortunately he's moved to shahputra college kuantan pahang for having a hectic result for his finals.
idk what happened to him. as far as i know, he's intelligent but he said  that he started to spending his time go to clubbing and sorts of enjoyous thingy.
and finally he's taking masscom program instead of engineering.
what a waste.

dont go and 'haha' people, hakim
who knows u will be following their footsteps.huh
and im just having this bad future thoughts that im gonna be here studying in UTM for the last semester ever.
and no more next. lets hoping for the best.
or maybe get a suitable course for me
hmm lets see
teaching?
artsy?
computer programming?
bio science?

urghhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!